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The Ego

I have read many works about the ego and it’s affects on the human condition. I would be lying to you if I didn’t admit that while I thought the words on the page made sense, I never fully understood how exactly it affects you until you go through an very compromising, and difficult part of your life. It is now that I realize that although the heart and mind’s decisions are more meaningful and important, it is the ego that rules over most of the decisions that you make in your life. Correction, it is the ego that steps in when making any decision that is unfamiliar to you, and puts you in a new territory. It is the ego that acts out of complete selfishness and insecurity. The ego has nothing else to stand on, no other choice but to be self-motivated.

As I get older, and some decisions, and experiences become less new, my ego has begun to take a backseat. I am now able to look around and see where my insecurities lie, and that it is OK to be afraid, or look stupid in front of others. Maybe for a moment your actions may be questionable, or not interpreted correctly, but if your actions are coming from a place that is secure within your mind and heart, then they are true, real, and cannot be disputed. They are the right actions, and no amount of speculation should make you feel picked at. You are following what’s true to you, and that is what I think makes us free. This is true freedom, true spirituality, true progression, true self.

I know now, that the only way to a better self, and gain possible enlightenment on life is by letting go of the ego. There is no person in this world who can judge my actions and make me feel uncomfortable for choosing them. I am now in a place where I know where my heart and mind are, and I know how I feel about the events, people, and places in my life. Judgment will not penetrate my ambitions because I know that thus far I have made mistakes, but I have always acted with my heart and rationale in mind.

It will be a challenge to completely ignore your ego. It’s healthy to have it in a necessary amount in order to feel good about oneself, and have pride in the face of prejudice or disrespect. It’s healthy to know that you are smart, attractive, funny, or creative. these are all good things. I suppose my original motivation to write about the ego comes from new understanding on how harmful it can be to your relationships. Every now and then you have to learn how to step outside of your head, and not be afraid of letting go, or hearing criticism about yourself. Sometimes, you just might find it to be constructive. However, there are other times when it can be hurtful, and when you become angered by it, and there is not solution, you might revert to immature behavior. Things that create more of a divisive line between yourself and love.

In the end it all comes down to the beauty of how a well adjusted human being finds the balance between the unexplainable but undeniable emotions of the heart, the rational and pragmatic notions of the mind, and the intense and inescapable reaction from the ego. I am ready to start living in a new state of understanding, and most of all I am ready to see what will transpire because of it.

Being 27, has proven to be a really significant year…